It’s called an eager heart.
One that stops and starts whenever a new boy enters the room,
Wondering if he will be the one for you,
It makes you want.
Makes you swoon.
Makes your skin hot.
Makes your belt loose.
Makes you lose
Your self-assured stance
And your solidarity in your solitude.
It makes you move
Lost-like and lonely,
Like you’ll always be this way,
Way down, steadily falling crest-first into:
It’s called a hole.
Each one of us has in our eager hearts
Like a lost puzzle piece,
Cruelly one of a kind,
Fit to fit something perfect,
To seal with steam and heat
Off the lips off his kiss in a brisk November breeze.
It makes us weak.
Makes us seem less.
Makes us be more than the risk of loss.
Makes us bold
For moments that could redefine the rest.
Makes us cut across the room,
Across the crowd,
And catch his eye
Like a tiger lily,
Daring and delicate
As the breath it takes to say:
"Hello.
I saw you and the din dimmed down,
Hushed and slowed
In a knowing glow,
Like I knew you before
In a former life when I loved you, and I could.
I have.
I already do."
I already do."
It’s called when it’s called for,
And it hurts like hell to put on a brave face
And fake being whole in one half,
Because you are...
And you are not.
And I hold the hope for each and every eager heart of you
For one day when the two will be the same,
For you who won’t simply settle
For just any new boy
Who enters the room...
Who enters the room...